sometimes it’s hard to accept that they’re really gone. We’ll love you forever Whitney.
Thanks for everything.
when giants fall…
February 21, 2012 at 7:11 pm (beautiful, black girls rock, celebrate, gratitude, greatness, love, music, soul)
it’s always beautiful and soulful and simply splendid. #blacklove
January 31, 2012 at 10:02 pm (art, beautiful, love, soul)
we remember those we’ve lost and celebrate those who are still here…#WORLDAIDSDAY
December 1, 2011 at 5:16 pm (celebrate, love, today)
the light
October 25, 2011 at 7:02 pm (love, poetry, soul, today, words)
Your light used to frighten me
Shining brightly on my inconsistencies and faults
So I hid
At least I thought I did
Forgetting most days that You are all seeing
Your ways past finding out
I thought I was really getting away
Playing shadow games with my flesh
Pleasing it often
Never thinking that You would discover my duplicity
My covert operations were flawless to most but never to You
I would stick and move
Bob and weave
I try to laundry my life as best as I could so that I would look clean
Perfume my stench with perfunctory worship so people wouldn’t suspect
I loved the dark
I thought it made me cool
Invisible
Slick
I would see the search light of your love looking for me but I would duck into the dimness of my sin
Feeling dangerous
Important
Smarter than You
Thinking all the while that I got away
But you saw me
Every dance with the devil
Every gamble with my fate
Every debt I could not pay
Slowly my life would turn black
But You saw me
Your light still searching
Your light finding me in the gloom
You spoke and I felt the light from Your mouth illumine me
A light so bright that I saw myself
Broken
Wasted
Dying
But you saw me
Blessed my life with light
All consuming
Warm
Full of love and compassion
Power and truth
Now I glow
No longer afraid of the light
I will walk therein
Unrestrained commitment
You
My light and lamp
Never-ending
Unlimited
Boundless
Radiance
Illumination
I see You clearly
Your love for me
Yet darkness calls me
A fraction of me craves it
The chase stimulating
Sometimes exciting
But I turn Your light towards me
Its rays dispels the murkiness
And I repent remembering Your light
Father even if I try to love the darkness
Let me give it up for You
And love You more
Make my life Your light
So that You may be seen high and lifted up in me
Forever
Shining
In my soul
©2011idreamagreenworldworks
I’m back…
October 24, 2011 at 6:36 pm (love, poetry, soul, thoughts, words)
I have to admit that it’s been a minute since I’ve posted. My days are so full that sometimes it’s hard to sit still and write. In my last post, I said farewell to my 30′s and hello to my 40′s. Since then, I went on an amazing vacay to D.R., and traveled to ATL for a conference. All in the midst of my daily routine of work, rehearsals and just life.
This month unlike others has really ushered me into a different place. I feel as if truly change is happening and I’m paying attention so that I don’t screw it up. 
I’ve also been inspired to write again. I’m not sure how long this will last but I’ll embrace it for as long as it wishes to stay. We’ll see what the day brings…
THE GLORY
I want to be in that place where I can let my hair down
I want to exchange my glory for Your glory
Let me be brave enough to break my box and pour my life on You
Let me be strong enough to be weak in Your presence
I’ve played the hero in my world for too long
Living up to the standard of being tough
It’s made my heart hard of hearing
I became deaf to the sound of Your heartbeat
Not recognizing its rhythm and melody playing the song of my life
I was afraid to let You be God
Control issues still force my hands and will to do things I know don’t make you smile
But I’m here now
Box in hand
Filled to the brim with everything I own
I’ve been saving all my life for this moment
But I’ve been afraid of staring eyes and grumbling mouths
Too concerned with what I looked like in their eyes so I presented perfection
Coiffed and made up
Concealing this scream I wanted to let out
HELP ME!
So many times I wanted to love you without abandon
My broken heart kept me from saying yes
So I poured my love into this box
Alabaster
Costly
All I have
I’ve never spent so much or expected so much in return
I arose today with expectancy
My heart beating rapidly because I knew that if I sought you that I would find you
Your love called to me and I found You
Many questioned my presence but all I felt was Your presence
Standing before You now
My hands tremble because Your mercy sees me and calls me worthy
Unashamed for the first time I let my hair down
I give into this passion of loving you completely
I let it engulf me and it causes my box to break
I pour my life, my love, my all onto You and worship You
For the first time freely
For the first time wholly
For the first time truly seeing You for who You are
I see Your glory
I want to live there
My glory for your glory
Move me now from glory to glory
Never to be the same
Preparing You for the greatest act of love
Your love prepared me to receive it
Your body
Your blood
My broken box held my love for You
Your broken body held Your love for me
You poured Your love on me
Without restraint
With abandon
Gave me life with Your life
Your glory in exchange for mine
All of You for all of me
More than enough
Full
Complete
Finally
Whole
©2011idreamagreenworldworks
you know how i feel abt blk love…there’s nothing better.
June 2, 2011 at 9:38 pm (beautiful, love, words)
just busy being busy about my business
busying myself so that my fingers don’t reach for your mouth
as they trace the outline of your lips that I hungrily wish to devour
because you are becoming my concern, my agenda, my priority, on my list, my new order of business
so I better get busy loving you
©2011 idreamagreenworldworks
beautiful surprise…
March 29, 2011 at 3:24 pm (beautiful, love, sigh, spring)
Life is full of surprises. Just when you have settled into the routine of your life, work, family, friends, love, no love, something pops up and shakes your existence to the core. All that you thought you knew, understood, almost vanish with the sudden, unexpected promise of surprise. I love surprises. Well at least I believe I do. I haven’t had many so let me retract that statement, I think I love surprises. I often watch episodes of Oprah when she surprises her guest with her favorite thing or their favorite celebrity and I find myself crying happy tears, wanting to be surprised too.
So in walks You, coming from the darkened shadows as if You’ve been waiting in the wings for Your cue to enter stage right. Literally snatched from a page in my past , You were my first love, my first kiss. Fast forward to the present and we’re like Sanaa and Taye in a scene from Brown Sugar. Standard old friend greetings and how you beens turn into weaved fingers under tables … somehow we still fit. I try not to take You seriously thinking that You are just still a nice guy and that I didn’t feel the spark when our hands touched, but I did. You return to my table reminding me of our past, flashing that smile and I’m warm. Still not wanting to acknowledge the sparks felt, I promise to keep in touch only for You to return again and take a seat and take my hand. This time more than sparks, we both feel the intensity of them as we gaze at each other. Honestly, time stands still as the world seem to be on hyper speed, it’s just us. Our goodbye is a kiss on the cheek that lingers and words whispered. To be continued…
Surprises are great when they lead to roads wonderful and exciting. Feeling almost like Christmas unwrapping gifts, hoping that you get what you want, your heart’s desire, SURPRISE! Your heart beats uncontrollably as you look around to see if you’ve been “punked”, relieved when Ashton doesn’t come from behind the bushes. Settling in to see what all this means, you relax and enjoy the euphoria of the moment, holding tight to never let it end. Embracing the possibility of discovering more as time progresses … and it all started with a beautiful surprise.
elanaking
